Wednesday, September 02, 2009
Yesterday, a teacher mentioned to me..
'kalo budak x salin nota yg mazidah bagi, tak taula. tulisan dia kat atas blackboard tu...besarr, bulat!'
I just laughed, a bit touched.
After entering a class in the first period today, i tried to improve my handwriting. smaller and neater!
And then, tgk dari jauh. sengaja bejalan, berdiri kat blakang kelas. erm, better..look nicer! not bad.
The class finished, another period coming non stop.
Suddenly rasa cam best ja nak tulis lagi, on the blackboard!
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
Setelah sekian lama, Ramadhan datang lagi..and this time, I’m fasting as someone whose already working and not anymore as a student after 6 years.
Ramadhan tahun ni disertai musim hujan yang panjang dan meleret-leret, dari pagi ke petang, sampai malam. Tapi aku tak kata hujan ni cuaca yang buruk, sebab ada jugak orang yang suka hujan..iaitu aku, especially bila school holiday.
FYI, aku jenis yang susah nak tidur siang. Balik sekolah aku biasanya akan lunch, solat, then lepak depan TV melainkan kalau aku betul2 penat macam ada 1 hari tu sampai tak ada masa nak masuk bilik guru.
Malam tarawikh awal-awal macam biasa ja, tapi malam ketiga tu aduuh..aku sendiri pun tak tau apa jadi kat aku. Berbuka macam biasa, maghrib, ke surau. Isya’, tarawikh..2 rakaat, 4, 6, 8. Imam baca doa panjang skit and then rehat jap 5 minit. Ada la 2 3 orang yang tinggalkan saf.. aku pun menguap la, 1x, 2x. Aku pun lentok la kejap kat atas sejadah, in a form of a ‘sujud’.
Sujud malam tu adalah sujud aku paling panjang. Mana taknya, start dari rakaat 9 sampai habis rakaat ke18. Fuhh... Yang peliknya, apsal mak or akak aku tak kejutkan? Sedar je, mak aku cakap..
‘Panjang sujud syukur kamu ye?’
It took me, and all of us, 6 years to complete the journey. That, everyone knows. But literally, the journey I took to attend the ceremony was also, undeniably long.
Then, I took 8.30 am bus to Shahab Perdana and arrived there at 10.30 am. This means, I missed my 10 am bus that I was supposed to take with the rest (Ejat, Najat and Wan)
The only bus left was an 11 pm bus to
Whatever it is, I did it! We did it! Tapi perjuangan harus diteruskan, my service is always needed...
Sunday, July 26, 2009
This entry is written in 10 minutes time before I go to my next class
1. Exam questions
I was appointed as 'Penyelaras Soalan' for Form 4 English, Form 1 Computer Literacy and Standard 5 Mathematics. English paper is fine with me, but for CL - there is no reference
or anything; not even books or teachers to refer to. Maths - I was given the order abruptly
and believe it or not, I finished it in 15 minutes before it was sent for riso. Phew!
July 27, today! I have not eaten anything, yet. No time, seriously. Makan kat asram pun ok
la, not bad boleh masuk mulut la. Alhamdulillah.
3. Urusan posting
Headache. Still not sure if my parents will be able to come, in the process of 'memujuk' my
sisters and brothers to take a day leave to go for my konvo.
5. Former teacher
I've met 2 of my former teachers, one in standard 5 and another one in form 2. used to be
their student, and now colleagues!
Monday, July 20, 2009
Just to inform the latest news
I'm posted to Sekolah Model Khas Baling
Sekolah Model Khas Baling
Jalan Bukit Carok Nau
Kedah Yang Aman
Which means... I GOT POSTED TO MY HOMETOWN!
So now, i can't wait to get my own car so that i can stay at home permanently.
Why? Well, i hav transport problem and for now i go to school with my brother and insyaAllah by next week i'l be staying in te school hostel. All FOC!
Info about my school:
1. SModKB only consists of 500 students
2. Starting from Std. 4 - Form 5
3. Composition of studnets in a class: 19-25
4. Percents of English: 90% pass
1. I have no choice than to teach Maths for Std. 5
Again, students greet me 'Assalamualaikum Ustazah!' on my first day.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
first to go were jey and odah.
last nite, it was maddy and kas. one is my 'total cry out' friend and another one is my 3- months-survivor partner.
this morning, it was tikah's time. tikah, u and ur mom rocks! sorry for everything...
this one is special for wani. yes, i cried in front of her, her mom and my other friends. we were hugging each other under the hot sun, but nothing else matters now. i just wanna let my heart out. wani, halalkan semuanya. maafkan semuanya. walaupun kita taklah selalu menggembar-gemburkan yang kita roommate for 6 years, but deep in each of our bottom heart u are my 'bestest' roommate ever. don't forget to keep in touch. i miss u already though we just separated for less than 10 minutes.
in half an hour, its milah's time. i don't how how much tears will flow from my eyes anymore.
then, eva's time.
and tomorrow will be the rest's time.
i'll be missing u guys. it has become a habit for me to be with all of the 24 of u. and now i'll be in the career world alone, but i know u guys will still be with me.
Ya Allah, berkati hidup mereka semua. InsyaAllah.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
1. i might be late with this entry.
2. now i realize, i'm a light packer. good sign for future backpacking trip ^_^
3. bas express ke pantai timur memang rock, tahap drift!
4. it's so long since the last time i'm 'dealing' with nature.
5. i'm learning to cure my 'mabuk laut'.
6. nyesal terlepas peluang mencandat sotong.
Everytime we join something new, mesti nak pasang angan2 jadi itu dan ini. And here, aku pasang impian nak jadi sukarelawan PUSAKO. sounds easy, but InsyaAllah rezeki kan kehendak Allah asalkan kita usaha.
the backpackers team
waiting to be on board
subhanallah, that's all i can say
muka nak masuk laut
fish 'the boatman' caught before jumping into the sea
in the boat
the crystal mosque, went on the last day
one of the replicas
it' not that hard to be in Taj Mahal, thanx to Kak Iza and Cekgu Aizat...
only on the last day i found out Riss's sister and i have the same interest - korean/japanese movies!
Sunday, June 07, 2009
For quite some time, writing new entries for my blog became very alien for these reasons that involved the closest and important people around me. Here is the sequence:
- Out of the blue, Abah ‘sakit mata’. Yang peliknya, it doesn’t look that serious but it took some time to recover.
- Then, Abah got ‘demam chikungunya’ dan abah panggil demam ni ‘sakit yang tak bawak mati’. Well, actually it’s true. This unusual demam will make all your joints somehow almost go ‘paralysed’. At one point, mak saw abah sitting at one corner of the house and crying to himself. Why? Abah said because it’s too painful that he doesn’t have the guts to burden anyone for help.
- When abah recovered, then it goes to mak. Since mak is someone who loves to ‘bercerita’ to me, she told me how the suffering goes. She has to crawl to the bathroom (mak kata dia berat so she refuses any offer to help lift her up).
- FYI, it was not just my abah and mak who were not well but also my tok (my gandma). Tok is bedridden, and getting worse these two months. Just imagine my mak and abah has to take care of my tok while they are also sick at the same time. Lucky them that my mak teh sometimes come to help.
- After both mak and abah recovered from the ‘weird fever’, abah got ‘kayap’. Pity abah, though sometimes mak complains that abah is ‘manja’.
Glad I was at home, two weeks break. I have to be back to maktab for our Redang trip when the school break is about to start. Knowing that I’ll be away and my sister will be going to
1. Unpack their stuff and arrange them accordingly. Meaning to say, which shirt comes with which pants.
2. Make sure their ‘kereta control’ which was given by their pak su (my younger brother) has enough battery for two weeks.
3. Write down what time they have to wake up, brush their teeth, mandi and sleep everyday.
4. Remind them where they should and should not go or play around, not to bother tok and tok wan when mak cik (it’s me) is not around.
Hectic, yes. But I learn a lot definitely. And now I’m here in maktab attending my 8 hours per day course called KISSM. I am now on the go to be a ‘penjawat awam’ while waiting for my ‘
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
for i do not know what
for i do not who
for i do not know on what reason
i feel like i am somewhere else, when i am actually at one particular place
even scattered around, places i do not know
wondering if i am doing the right thing
choosing one particular person over the other
putting myself into the the secret-self commitment
everything needs justification + i am what i decide + whom to be and to be with
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
come to night
i feel sick, really sick
of the people around me
the nearest, the closest
even those i never know
when u have a wound, and some people put a pinch of salt on top of it!
i really need someone to talk to at that particular moment
but there was no one, only me
in my square own world
i wish my brother was here
he will hug me
put me into his comforting hands and shoulders
under his warm breath
019... - r u comin back 2morro
he can totally read my mind
with this electrostatic and magnetic bond of a family
reply: x sure yet
019... - sakit ke
reply: u think
019... - i got new place to bring u, plz
reply... - go on ur own la
019... - not complete
the wound heal
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
18 of us, at my house prepare for our lata bayu picnic.
but for nani, najat and i: the preparation was even worse. we went to buy the stuff at pasar malam in the evening and prepare everything at night. tak malu nak ckp, kitorang bertiga mandi kol 12 mlm tu sebab xnak badan bau ayam. but it's fun though. even my mom was surprised that we could prepare those nice marinate sauce. huhu. i'm proud.
the next morning, another 15 came in 4 cars. thanx to camel, chrix, in and kalut for driving. sampai jugak depa kat umah aku. aku nampak muka mak ngan abah aku time tu, macam tekejut sebab ramai (actually aku tak cakap pun the exact number of people yg nak mai, hehe saja nak surprise). tp aku tau, mak ngan abah aku happy sebenanya tu, because they are actually sunyi xde sapa kat umah.
aku plan before that nak kenalkan diorang ni sorang2 kat parents aku, tapi x sempat sebab smua dah serbu and jadi hyper bila tgk pokok2 buah and my house yang macam dusun ni. instead of introducing them to my parents, i have to introduce them to all the pokok2 yang ada kat umah aku. hehe. winnie siap impressed lagi. 'patutla u tiap2 minggu balik rumah'. hehe
i jamu them with pulut santan + ikan pekasam + sambal ikan bilis + teh o panas for breakfast. mak aku terkejut tgk budak2 ni makan pulut macam nasik, abis lentok la smua lpas ni...
then, my mom and all of us siapkan all the last preparation. kerabu mangga + ulam pucuk paku and ulam raja + sambal belacan.
at 10am, we all pun bertolak.
and aku malu ngan diri aku, sebagai anak jati baling aku bleh bawak 2 kreta ke jalan yang salah hehe. aku excited sgt actually, tu yang sampai terlajak!
set up tempat nak bakar ayam
sambil menyicah pelam + jambu + asam renda
sambil tunggu ayam masak, they went to mandi
yg aku cakap, x bawak baju tukar
actually aku lagi suka bila tgk member2 aku happy
these are all the pictures:
Saturday, April 04, 2009
the one below is kalut's
and these are my own preview:
1. Mahesh is cute, and i could feel him.
2. Hafiz did well in miming the songs.
3. I did not seemuch of Melur's character in Pamela.
4. Being a 'true' Muslim is not just about performing the solat 5 times a day. it is also about
carrying the 'ajaran' in ur whole life.
5. Being a Malay does not mean u are a Muslim. in fact, there are more Malays in Islam that
Islam in the Malays. What say u?
it is fun though to see cynical messages inserted in kinda fun way. it is more of a work art than just a movie.
i sat in the cinema between jey and kalut, sort of disappointing since i would prefer to sit between najat or ejat. but i still enjoy the show.
the left one kept silent throughout the show while the one on the right was the other way around.
'gda, where's the part i should cry? i still can't feel it.' - kalut
different people, different sense of feeling. i understand.
my eyes did 'bergenang' at few scenes, and the tears dropped through bot my cheeks towards the end of the show. death can come in any way. and losing someone u love to death is indescribable.
it was also an exciting day out because i got to buy this:
then, we had our dinner at nashmir, the nearest and easiest for a rainy day and pocket-friendly.
lastly, went back and did what i do everyday:
went back and start planning for the weekend's hang out, at my house!
wait for the next entry (",)
me: miss, what's the smallest size u got?
akak tu: 1???
me: owe! give me size 3...(akak tu perli aku seh!)
the red team, supposedly! ejat, chris, mat and in (MIA)
me: jey, jom kite dua ambik gambar team
jey: the blue shirt girls
in: nak jugak
me: kacau la in
~bila tgk balik kamera, rupanya ada lagi sorang sesat kat tepi skali~
in: gda, jom kita ambik gambar layan aku: sapa nak ambikkan in: kita ambik sendiri ar... ~fyi, the camera was in in's hand. i kinda like this~
scene ambik gambar beramai2. banyak plak tu!
nak pi mana in?
say gda baby!!! the most shameful moment for me in public!
team champion, but still i got the 'most sikit' score sob sob ='(
then, we went to hotmas for dinner. this is my first time
camel and boy
some people: what stupid thing are u guys doing???
other people: we think what u did is more stupider!!!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
and the passion, the sparks for teaching and writing literature come again today after watching this movie...
'dead poet society'
and robin williams' character as Mr. Keating in the movie touched me, one of the characteristics of teacher i would like to have
these are the quotes:
'we don't read and write poetry because it's cute, we read and write poetry because we are members of the human race and human race is filled with passion'
'what is language for? to woo women - Shakespeare'
'we must stand taller to see things differently'
as i would say, see the significance...
Sunday, March 29, 2009
this person is confident
as usual, the word 'confirm' came out!
thanx to whoever the writer is, which i guess would be a female..?? confess!
i actually really waited for 'the letter about me' to come out. because i think this is a good and meaningful activity and and also an approach for you to know yourself better from the point of view of other people, self-reflect!
a week after, which was yesterday...it revealed another me! my open problem..
easily get bored
one with mixed-feeling, almost all the time!
and my most favourite suggestion of solution was the one by faiz:
buy a perfume with the sweetest smell so i would feel more confident, as they inferred me by having 'inferiority complex'.. huhu
one obvious thing i should always do now is to
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
erm, can i pass this question to other people who know me? i am who i am, but how other people see me is the real me.
Upload your favourite picture..
captured on August 24, 2008 at 8.08 am
Why do you like the picture??
significant. a country, from the point of view of the students, the teacher. i was in the stduents' shoes and i'll be in the shoes of one of those on the chairs. the frontline.
When was the last time you ate pizza??
recalling... last long term break, with my sister and my brother in cs sp. i'm boycotting, but its my sister's treat.
The last song you listen to?
cookie jar - gym class heroes
What name do you prefers besides yours?
i'm grateful enough with the name i'm bringing with me.
5 People to mention:
1. The Baju Kurung Adventure
2. Great Teacher Aizat
Who is No 1?
someone i would say adorable. a floormate. a coursemate. one of my 24-other-half. a 6-year-u-would-never-regret-to-be-friend-with.
No 3 is having a relationship with?
Oops... i'm not sure. would it be proper if i said 'too many'? i'll ask him again later okeh?
Say something about no 5.
someone with the longest full name in the register. fragile, as she would say it. my front-door neighbour. a swimmer. knowledgeable. my another 24-other-half. a great, inspiring future teacher.
How about no 4?
owe... a kedahan coursemate. i see him the way i see him, hardly to be influenced by what other people would say. a lone ranger, at certain points.
Who is no 2?
ohoho... my another 24-other-half. sold me 'a RM70 very nice light green baju/blouse indon' and also my 'avon supplier'. huhu. her word-for-thought, 'sapa tanya lagi, kena ngan aku'. sory beb...
A blogger friend u did not tag?
erm, kuden! because i believe he is dead busy there in indon finishing his study. a person i admire - his determination, his strength, his independency to live life. anyway he's coming back this school holiday. to see me. i've prepared him a present for his belated. and he is coming back with some other baju for me from bandung, huhu. one of my closest budak-hayat, lepak during class gap friend in matrix changlun.
~ lol (",) ~
no other words i can say, alhamdulillah! there are still people who can be very understanding.
~ enjoy the pics of our first day practice ~