From the Point of View of Naivety

2009-09-02T19:18:00.000-07:00

i'm already a teacher! and i can call myself a T.E.A.C.H.E.R. and thank u to all my teachers, at school, at home and everywhere...

A new sudden addiction!

2009-09-02T18:34:00.000-07:00

Addiction?
Yes!
Yesterday, a teacher mentioned to me..
'kalo budak x salin nota yg mazidah bagi, tak taula. tulisan dia kat atas blackboard tu...besarr, bulat!'
I just laughed, a bit touched.

After entering a class in the first period today, i tried to improve my handwriting. smaller and neater!

And then, tgk dari jauh. sengaja bejalan, berdiri kat blakang kelas. erm, better..look nicer! not bad.

The class finished, another period coming non stop.

Suddenly rasa cam best ja nak tulis lagi, on the blackboard!

Mencabarnya Tarawikh...

2009-09-01T18:04:00.000-07:00

3 Ramadhan 1430H

Setelah sekian lama, Ramadhan datang lagi..and this time, I’m fasting as someone whose already working and not anymore as a student after 6 years.

Ramadhan tahun ni disertai musim hujan yang panjang dan meleret-leret, dari pagi ke petang, sampai malam. Tapi aku tak kata hujan ni cuaca yang buruk, sebab ada jugak orang yang suka hujan..iaitu aku, especially bila school holiday.

FYI, aku jenis yang susah nak tidur siang. Balik sekolah aku biasanya akan lunch, solat, then lepak depan TV melainkan kalau aku betul2 penat macam ada 1 hari tu sampai tak ada masa nak masuk bilik guru.

Malam tarawikh awal-awal macam biasa ja, tapi malam ketiga tu aduuh..aku sendiri pun tak tau apa jadi kat aku. Berbuka macam biasa, maghrib, ke surau. Isya’, tarawikh..2 rakaat, 4, 6, 8. Imam baca doa panjang skit and then rehat jap 5 minit. Ada la 2 3 orang yang tinggalkan saf.. aku pun menguap la, 1x, 2x. Aku pun lentok la kejap kat atas sejadah, in a form of a ‘sujud’.

Sujud malam tu adalah sujud aku paling panjang. Mana taknya, start dari rakaat 9 sampai habis rakaat ke18. Fuhh... Yang peliknya, apsal mak or akak aku tak kejutkan? Sedar je, mak aku cakap..

‘Panjang sujud syukur kamu ye?’

Jauhnya perjalanan…

2009-09-01T17:48:00.001-07:00

It took me, and all of us, 6 years to complete the journey. That, everyone knows. But literally, the journey I took to attend the ceremony was also, undeniably long.

Went out at 6.15 am (Sunday) but I missed the bus. Kisahnya, the bus bertolak keluar lebih awal dari masa yg sepatutnya. Nasib..

Then, I took 8.30 am bus to Shahab Perdana and arrived there at 10.30 am. This means, I missed my 10 am bus that I was supposed to take with the rest (Ejat, Najat and Wan)

Hoping to take the next buses - 11 am, 3 pm or 5 pm; unfortunately all were sold out.

The only bus left was an 11 pm bus to Ipoh.

I took the bus and arrived in Ipoh at 2 am in the morning. Lucky my brother was able to come and fetch me or else, I’ll be sleeping in Medan Gopeng alone!!!

Then, only the next morning at 9 am I departed to Tanjung Malim and arrived there at 11 am.

Went to take the convocation robe and I had no other choice than to follow Wani to her sister’s house. No raptai or anything.

And the next day, everything went smooth except for my parents who arrived quite late from Ipoh but they finally made it.

Whatever it is, I did it! We did it! Tapi perjuangan harus diteruskan, my service is always needed...

2009-07-26T19:37:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum, greettings to all...

This entry is written in 10 minutes time before I go to my next class

1. Exam questions
I was appointed as 'Penyelaras Soalan' for Form 4 English, Form 1 Computer Literacy and Standard 5 Mathematics. English paper is fine with me, but for CL - there is no reference
or anything; not even books or teachers to refer to. Maths - I was given the order abruptly
and believe it or not, I finished it in 15 minutes before it was sent for riso. Phew!

2. Eat
July 27, today! I have not eaten anything, yet. No time, seriously. Makan kat asram pun ok
la, not bad boleh masuk mulut la. Alhamdulillah.

3. Urusan posting
Done!

4. Konvokesyen
Headache. Still not sure if my parents will be able to come, in the process of 'memujuk' my
sisters and brothers to take a day leave to go for my konvo.

5. Former teacher
I've met 2 of my former teachers, one in standard 5 and another one in form 2. used to be
their student, and now colleagues!

in the school ambience

2009-07-20T19:05:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum, greetings to all...(",)

Just to inform the latest news

I'm posted to Sekolah Model Khas Baling

The address

Sekolah Model Khas Baling
Jalan Bukit Carok Nau
09100 Baling
Kedah Yang Aman

Which means... I GOT POSTED TO MY HOMETOWN!

So now, i can't wait to get my own car so that i can stay at home permanently.

Why? Well, i hav transport problem and for now i go to school with my brother and insyaAllah by next week i'l be staying in te school hostel. All FOC!

Info about my school:
1. SModKB only consists of 500 students
2. Starting from Std. 4 - Form 5
3. Composition of studnets in a class: 19-25
4. Percents of English: 90% pass

Shocking news:
1. I have no choice than to teach Maths for Std. 5

Again, students greet me 'Assalamualaikum Ustazah!' on my first day.

tata titi tutu

2009-06-25T05:08:00.003-07:00

in about half an hour, i'll be going back for good. may not be able to write for quite some times.
my heart is beating very hard. still waiting for my posting letter. phew!

perpisahan itu datang

2009-06-24T20:18:00.000-07:00

when i'm writing this, i'm crying. out loud! i just let my roommate for 6 years go. go back for good. i feel so immature. but for me, 'this separation is an excuse to let my heart out.'

first to go were jey and odah.

last nite, it was maddy and kas. one is my 'total cry out' friend and another one is my 3- months-survivor partner.

this morning, it was tikah's time. tikah, u and ur mom rocks! sorry for everything...

this one is special for wani. yes, i cried in front of her, her mom and my other friends. we were hugging each other under the hot sun, but nothing else matters now. i just wanna let my heart out. wani, halalkan semuanya. maafkan semuanya. walaupun kita taklah selalu menggembar-gemburkan yang kita roommate for 6 years, but deep in each of our bottom heart u are my 'bestest' roommate ever. don't forget to keep in touch. i miss u already though we just separated for less than 10 minutes.

in half an hour, its milah's time. i don't how how much tears will flow from my eyes anymore.

then, eva's time.

and tomorrow will be the rest's time.

i'll be missing u guys. it has become a habit for me to be with all of the 24 of u. and now i'll be in the career world alone, but i know u guys will still be with me.

Ya Allah, berkati hidup mereka semua. InsyaAllah.

underwater world

2009-06-24T03:32:00.000-07:00

my scuba diving picture!

~another world i would love to explore~

2009-06-10T05:49:00.003-07:00

salam and greetings to all =)

1. i might be late with this entry.
2. now i realize, i'm a light packer. good sign for future backpacking trip ^_^
3. bas express ke pantai timur memang rock, tahap drift!
4. it's so long since the last time i'm 'dealing' with nature.
5. i'm learning to cure my 'mabuk laut'.
6. nyesal terlepas peluang mencandat sotong.

Most important of all, i had my birthday night blast on the boat for the first time in my 24 years!!!

Everytime we join something new, mesti nak pasang angan2 jadi itu dan ini. And here, aku pasang impian nak jadi sukarelawan PUSAKO. sounds easy, but InsyaAllah rezeki kan kehendak Allah asalkan kita usaha.

the backpackers team

waiting to be on board

subhanallah, that's all i can say

muka nak masuk laut

fish 'the boatman' caught before jumping into the sea

in the boat

snorkel time

the crystal mosque, went on the last day

one of the replicas

it' not that hard to be in Taj Mahal, thanx to Kak Iza and Cekgu Aizat...
only on the last day i found out Riss's sister and i have the same interest - korean/japanese movies!

How hectic my life could be?

2009-06-07T06:05:00.001-07:00

For quite some time, writing new entries for my blog became very alien for these reasons that involved the closest and important people around me. Here is the sequence:

Out of the blue, Abah ‘sakit mata’. Yang peliknya, it doesn’t look that serious but it took some time to recover.
Then, Abah got ‘demam chikungunya’ dan abah panggil demam ni ‘sakit yang tak bawak mati’. Well, actually it’s true. This unusual demam will make all your joints somehow almost go ‘paralysed’. At one point, mak saw abah sitting at one corner of the house and crying to himself. Why? Abah said because it’s too painful that he doesn’t have the guts to burden anyone for help.
When abah recovered, then it goes to mak. Since mak is someone who loves to ‘bercerita’ to me, she told me how the suffering goes. She has to crawl to the bathroom (mak kata dia berat so she refuses any offer to help lift her up).
FYI, it was not just my abah and mak who were not well but also my tok (my gandma). Tok is bedridden, and getting worse these two months. Just imagine my mak and abah has to take care of my tok while they are also sick at the same time. Lucky them that my mak teh sometimes come to help.
After both mak and abah recovered from the ‘weird fever’, abah got ‘kayap’. Pity abah, though sometimes mak complains that abah is ‘manja’.

Glad I was at home, two weeks break. I have to be back to maktab for our Redang trip when the school break is about to start. Knowing that I’ll be away and my sister will be going to Sabah to see her husband, I decided to go take my twin nephews aka their twin grandson back while sending my sister to the Bayan Lepas airport. Just to make sure my mak and abah won’t be alone and feel sunyi at home while their two daughters are not around. Bringing back the two ‘kanak-kanak buas’ is another thing. I have to:

1. Unpack their stuff and arrange them accordingly. Meaning to say, which shirt comes with which pants.

2. Make sure their ‘kereta control’ which was given by their pak su (my younger brother) has enough battery for two weeks.

3. Write down what time they have to wake up, brush their teeth, mandi and sleep everyday.

4. Remind them where they should and should not go or play around, not to bother tok and tok wan when mak cik (it’s me) is not around.

Hectic, yes. But I learn a lot definitely. And now I’m here in maktab attending my 8 hours per day course called KISSM. I am now on the go to be a ‘penjawat awam’ while waiting for my ‘surat penempatan’.

get to know

2009-04-21T21:18:00.000-07:00

what do you call a person who has exam the next day but still have time to take 5 and complete a personality test on the net? --- haha

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

from http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

i'm afraid

2009-04-14T21:42:00.000-07:00

these few days, this week basically. i feel, somehow:

anxious
frightened
restless
uneasy
yearning

for i do not know what
for i do not who
for i do not know on what reason

i feel like i am somewhere else, when i am actually at one particular place

even scattered around, places i do not know

wondering if i am doing the right thing

choosing one particular person over the other

putting myself into the the secret-self commitment

everything needs justification + i am what i decide + whom to be and to be with

when its written

2009-04-08T23:08:00.001-07:00

that evening
come to night
i feel sick, really sick
of the people around me
the nearest, the closest
even those i never know
when u have a wound, and some people put a pinch of salt on top of it!

i really need someone to talk to at that particular moment
but there was no one, only me
in my square own world

i wish my brother was here
he will hug me
put me into his comforting hands and shoulders
under his warm breath

beep beep
019... - r u comin back 2morro

he can totally read my mind
with this electrostatic and magnetic bond of a family

reply: x sure yet

019... - sakit ke

reply: u think

019... - i got new place to bring u, plz

reply... - go on ur own la

019... - not complete

reply: ok

the wound heal

the 18 'almost crazy' people

2009-04-07T23:46:00.000-07:00

last saturday, 4th march.
18 of us, at my house prepare for our lata bayu picnic.

but for nani, najat and i: the preparation was even worse. we went to buy the stuff at pasar malam in the evening and prepare everything at night. tak malu nak ckp, kitorang bertiga mandi kol 12 mlm tu sebab xnak badan bau ayam. but it's fun though. even my mom was surprised that we could prepare those nice marinate sauce. huhu. i'm proud.

the next morning, another 15 came in 4 cars. thanx to camel, chrix, in and kalut for driving. sampai jugak depa kat umah aku. aku nampak muka mak ngan abah aku time tu, macam tekejut sebab ramai (actually aku tak cakap pun the exact number of people yg nak mai, hehe saja nak surprise). tp aku tau, mak ngan abah aku happy sebenanya tu, because they are actually sunyi xde sapa kat umah.

aku plan before that nak kenalkan diorang ni sorang2 kat parents aku, tapi x sempat sebab smua dah serbu and jadi hyper bila tgk pokok2 buah and my house yang macam dusun ni. instead of introducing them to my parents, i have to introduce them to all the pokok2 yang ada kat umah aku. hehe. winnie siap impressed lagi. 'patutla u tiap2 minggu balik rumah'. hehe

i jamu them with pulut santan + ikan pekasam + sambal ikan bilis + teh o panas for breakfast. mak aku terkejut tgk budak2 ni makan pulut macam nasik, abis lentok la smua lpas ni...

then, my mom and all of us siapkan all the last preparation. kerabu mangga + ulam pucuk paku and ulam raja + sambal belacan.

at 10am, we all pun bertolak.

and aku malu ngan diri aku, sebagai anak jati baling aku bleh bawak 2 kreta ke jalan yang salah hehe. aku excited sgt actually, tu yang sampai terlajak!

sampai
cari pot
set up tempat nak bakar ayam
main2 air
sambil menyicah pelam + jambu + asam renda

sambil tunggu ayam masak, they went to mandi
i didn't
ada sebab
yg aku cakap, x bawak baju tukar
actually aku lagi suka bila tgk member2 aku happy

these are all the pictures:

the boys tgh breakfast

setting up the fire, yang lain tu sebok jer...

penyebab sakit perut

hasilnya!

happy sampai terbang2 itik nih..

suka!

makan time!

allergik jumpa air, jd hyper..

~cantik kat belakang~

definitely, hoping this won't be our last picnic! there's more to come...lol (",)

wednesday day out!

2009-04-04T20:01:00.004-07:00

psychologically prepared to go watch the most positive preview from most of my friends on this:

the one below is kalut's

and these are my own preview:
1. Mahesh is cute, and i could feel him.
2. Hafiz did well in miming the songs.
3. I did not seemuch of Melur's character in Pamela.
4. Being a 'true' Muslim is not just about performing the solat 5 times a day. it is also about
carrying the 'ajaran' in ur whole life.
5. Being a Malay does not mean u are a Muslim. in fact, there are more Malays in Islam that
Islam in the Malays. What say u?

it is fun though to see cynical messages inserted in kinda fun way. it is more of a work art than just a movie.

i sat in the cinema between jey and kalut, sort of disappointing since i would prefer to sit between najat or ejat. but i still enjoy the show.

the left one kept silent throughout the show while the one on the right was the other way around.
'gda, where's the part i should cry? i still can't feel it.' - kalut
different people, different sense of feeling. i understand.

my eyes did 'bergenang' at few scenes, and the tears dropped through bot my cheeks towards the end of the show. death can come in any way. and losing someone u love to death is indescribable.

it was also an exciting day out because i got to buy this:

then, we had our dinner at nashmir, the nearest and easiest for a rainy day and pocket-friendly.

lastly, went back and did what i do everyday:

went back and start planning for the weekend's hang out, at my house!
wait for the next entry (",)

simbol keriangan

2009-04-04T18:16:00.000-07:00

on the 30th of march, last monday we went to play bowling in cs. since my shoulder is aching now due to this bowling stuff (it starts from the fingers, and now it goes to the right shoulder) and plus this weekends chores for our picnic, i don't think i can write much.so i will just tell the story through these pictures.

enjoy ^_^

me: miss, what's the smallest size u got?
akak tu: 1???
me: owe! give me size 3...(akak tu perli aku seh!)

the red team, supposedly! ejat, chris, mat and in (MIA)

me: jey, jom kite dua ambik gambar team
jey: the blue shirt girls
in: nak jugak
me: kacau la in
~bila tgk balik kamera, rupanya ada lagi sorang sesat kat tepi skali~

in: gda, jom kita ambik gambar layan aku: sapa nak ambikkan in: kita ambik sendiri ar... ~fyi, the camera was in in's hand. i kinda like this~

scene ambik gambar beramai2. banyak plak tu!

nak pi mana in?

say gda baby!!! the most shameful moment for me in public!

team champion, but still i got the 'most sikit' score sob sob ='(

then, we went to hotmas for dinner. this is my first time

camel and boy

our table

another table

some people: what stupid thing are u guys doing???
other people: we think what u did is more stupider!!!

~lol~

another reason for doing literature

2009-03-31T09:42:00.001-07:00

people might laugh and think that i'm weird, but there are certain movies that i watch with a pen and a piece of paper in my hand. why? simple, i love to jot down interesting new words, sayings and quotes.. i'm definitely not a plagiarizer, but in a way, a copier!

and the passion, the sparks for teaching and writing literature come again today after watching this movie...

'dead poet society'

and robin williams' character as Mr. Keating in the movie touched me, one of the characteristics of teacher i would like to have

these are the quotes:

'words and ideas can change the world'

'we don't read and write poetry because it's cute, we read and write poetry because we are members of the human race and human race is filled with passion'

'what is language for? to woo women - Shakespeare'

'we must stand taller to see things differently'

though the ending sacrificed a pioneer character, it means a lot!
as i would say, see the significance...

self-reflect

2009-03-29T20:51:00.003-07:00

for the previous tutorial session, this was what came out about me..

this person is confident
has self-disciplined
work smart
as usual, the word 'confirm' came out!
and
cute!

thanx to whoever the writer is, which i guess would be a female..?? confess!

i actually really waited for 'the letter about me' to come out. because i think this is a good and meaningful activity and and also an approach for you to know yourself better from the point of view of other people, self-reflect!

a week after, which was yesterday...it revealed another me! my open problem..

suffer-in-silence
confused
easily get bored
one with mixed-feeling, almost all the time!

and my most favourite suggestion of solution was the one by faiz:
buy a perfume with the sweetest smell so i would feel more confident, as they inferred me by having 'inferiority complex'.. huhu

one obvious thing i should always do now is to

not be sad

or depressed

but smile!

would like to do this?

2009-03-11T03:01:00.003-07:00

i got tagged by a random blogger. and i would like to complete this. i haven't finished with my chapter 5, but have handed in my chapter 4. hehe, a bit of a relief but still...no holiday for me!

Do you think you are adorable?
erm, can i pass this question to other people who know me? i am who i am, but how other people see me is the real me.

Upload your favourite picture..

captured on August 24, 2008 at 8.08 am

Why do you like the picture??
significant. a country, from the point of view of the students, the teacher. i was in the stduents' shoes and i'll be in the shoes of one of those on the chairs. the frontline.

When was the last time you ate pizza??
recalling... last long term break, with my sister and my brother in cs sp. i'm boycotting, but its my sister's treat.

The last song you listen to?
cookie jar - gym class heroes

What name do you prefers besides yours?
i'm grateful enough with the name i'm bringing with me.

5 People to mention:
1. The Baju Kurung Adventure
2. Great Teacher Aizat
3. anotherbloggerhead
4. blitz
5. wanderfulmadnificent

Who is No 1?
someone i would say adorable. a floormate. a coursemate. one of my 24-other-half. a 6-year-u-would-never-regret-to-be-friend-with.

No 3 is having a relationship with?
Oops... i'm not sure. would it be proper if i said 'too many'? i'll ask him again later okeh?

Say something about no 5.
someone with the longest full name in the register. fragile, as she would say it. my front-door neighbour. a swimmer. knowledgeable. my another 24-other-half. a great, inspiring future teacher.

How about no 4?
owe... a kedahan coursemate. i see him the way i see him, hardly to be influenced by what other people would say. a lone ranger, at certain points.

Who is no 2?
ohoho... my another 24-other-half. sold me 'a RM70 very nice light green baju/blouse indon' and also my 'avon supplier'. huhu. her word-for-thought, 'sapa tanya lagi, kena ngan aku'. sory beb...

A blogger friend u did not tag?
erm, kuden! because i believe he is dead busy there in indon finishing his study. a person i admire - his determination, his strength, his independency to live life. anyway he's coming back this school holiday. to see me. i've prepared him a present for his belated. and he is coming back with some other baju for me from bandung, huhu. one of my closest budak-hayat, lepak during class gap friend in matrix changlun.

~ lol (",) ~

good news that heal us all

2009-03-11T01:47:00.000-07:00

'your storytelling concert will be postponed and it will be one of your post-exam activities. this is to give you some time for your project paper and also more ample time for you to prepare a great performance on that night.'

no other words i can say, alhamdulillah! there are still people who can be very understanding.

~ enjoy the pics of our first day practice ~

mencoba

milah and the goreng pisang

the face of the scriptwriter

odah yang berbaju merah

wani is looking around

matt and the lute

faiz in his fruit printed shirt

this is the way i see the lute

artistic

who -- me? as usual, hiding behind the screen!

--- wish us all luck ---

another tag!

2009-03-06T07:20:00.000-08:00

i'm just interested to complete this tag from a blogger i follow: ayin emran

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to answer the questions and at the end, choose 20 people to be tagged. If I tagged you, it's because I'd like to know more about you.

1) Were you named after anyone?
I don think so. but according to my mom, my name was actually mistaken after my sister. sob sob ='(

2) When was the last time you cried?
this morning! because of a touching and meaningful movie..

3) Do you like your handwriting?
Sometimes.

4) What is your favourite lunch meat?
Chicken.

5) Do you have kids?
Not yet.

6) If you were another person, would you like to be friends with you?
I'll regret if I don't.

7) Do you use sarcasm?
Sarcasm is my food.

8) Do you still have your tonsils?
Yes.

9) Would you bungee jump?
I'd looveee to. anytime goes for extreme and adventure.

10) What is your favourite cereal?
Fitness, so far.

11) Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
Nop. I got small feet, so usually i'll just cabut them off.

12) What is your favourite ice–cream?
something orangy and soury, walls!

13) What is the first thing you notice about people?
their smile, ikhlas or not!

14) Red or pink?
Red. Because i like to give a confident look though sometimes i'm not.

15) What is the least favourite thing about yourself?
the specs. but i have no choice! even contacts, haven't try.

16) Who do you miss the most?
My home and the people associated to it.

17) Do you want everyone to complete this list?
why not?

18) What colour of trousers and shoes are your wearing?
just done with blue black, and about to wear grey. shoes: red stripe.

19) What are you listening to right now?
the fan and sheila on 7.

20) If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?
turqoise. really love it ^_^

21) Favourite smells
bunga cempaka. the smell of home cooking is nostalgic for me.

22) The last person you talked to on the phone?
Najat.

23) Do you like the person who sent you this?
of course.

24) Favourite sports to watch?
badminton, swimming and high jump.

25) Hair colour?
Secret. guess!

26) Eye colour?
Melayu asli

27) Do you wear contacts?
No.

28) Favourite food?
something soupy: 'sup kanji daging' as my mom call it. and spicy: home made ikan keli bakar percik! (nyum2!)

28) Scary or happy endings?
Hanging. to provoke thinking.

29) Last movie you watched?
The sisterhood of the traveling pants. meaningful!

30) What colour of shirt are you wearing?
blue.

31) Summer or winter?
winter.

32) Favourite dessert?
sundae ice-cream.

33) Most likely to respond?
SMS.

34) Least likely to respond?
redundant question.

35) What books are you reading?
Kisah Cinta Dalam Al-Quran. academic books u don wanna know!

36) What is on your mousepad?
i only have an optical mouse, no mousepad.

37) What did you watch last night?
nothing, doing assignment.

38) Rolling Stones? Beatles?
none.

39) Where is the furthest you have been from home?
erm, malacca? planning for sabah/sarawak towards the end of the year?

40) Do you have a special talent?
haven't discovered, sorry.

41) Where were you born?
hometown, kedah.

42) Whose answers are you looking forward to getting back?
someone u dont want and u cannot know about..wink*

i dont think any in my list would like to do this. everyone is busy. but if u would like to, u are welcome. have fun! (",)

there's loser in everyone!

2009-03-05T19:27:00.000-08:00

i just watched this movie this morning! yes, i got a lot of work to do yet the movie just keep inviting me...

the sisterhood of the traveling pants

this is quite an old movie, i think.

but it's nice. brilliant i mean.
gotta learn a lot from each encounter of the characters, the four girls. sisters as they would say it.

bridget. tibby. carmen. lena

all of which caught under 'what they call magic'. a pair of pants that suit them all. very well.
among all, this is what 'caught' me the most

tibby: there's loser in each of us!

(moral: if u did a mistake, it is a mistake)

carmen: our life changed because it has to

(moral: if anything good/bad happened to u, that is life)

watch the movie and find out

and the song

what's this life anyway
what's it to you and me
what is it to anyone
what it is suppose to be

make me a storybook
and write me away from here
i need a different now
where we can wear each other for a while
and i'll lend you my tears i could borrow your smile
and get through tomorrow
some other day
happy after once upon these days

allow me to say one word: meaningful

what i wish to do at this moment!

2009-03-03T23:31:00.002-08:00

kissing my mom on the cheeks, the forehead and the nose!

eating what i've been craving for quite so long!
cencaru sumbat

sup tulang kaw

writing on chapter 4 and 5 of my project paper!

finish off mr. nukman's report on bilingualism!

lepaking at the waterfall!

and swim along...

hugging and playing with the kids in my life!

the three stooges

the two lovers

the two cuzzies

watching those interesting movies in my collection!

for the forth time

for the third time

and those i haven't watch...

~and still searching!

i'm back to the gym

2009-03-03T09:15:00.000-08:00

assalamualaikum to all ^_^
dengan nama Allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang

after few days not going down to play, today is the day! ari lain asyik dok kat bilik ja, smua orang pun tgh struggling siapkan assignments yang datang bertalu2 dan due date nya dekat2 semuanya...

if we were not to go playing, turun petang just to go makan (which is a must!) so tak heran... latihan rumah tak yah cakapla, tak penah jenguk. sorryla ahli2 lain ye, kami memang tak contribute pape. tapi jgn salahkan kami 100%! tau semua orang pun busy. entahla... esok KOT kami tolong hiaskan booth rumah dengan kehadiran kami ok...

i can lompat jauh, tp mcm malas je nak try. last join pun kat sekolah dulu, wakil rumah. rumah RIA jugak (kat skolah dulu kaler kuning, tp kat maktab kaler biru).

cekgu aku mmg tak penah bagi peluang aku quit. dia kata
'kaki kamu panjang, badan plak ringan. memang kredit lah tu!'
ye lah tu kredit cekgu akibi, nasib baik cekgu ni bleh tahan ensem! hehe. aku lawak je pasal ensem tu, aku dulu skema & innocent tak ambik peduli sangat benda2 tu... the last time aku dapat tau, surprisingly cekgu akibi ni kat st. theresa sp. skolah ROS rumet aku, tu pun aku dapat tau melalui pics ari sukan skolah dia.

back to the topic. arini aku main badminton. beregu ngan kalut (as usual) lawan nani & wan. arini aku nampak wan kecikkk ja, sebab dia & nani suka main net. hish! aku ni bila lama tak sport jadi slow skit (alasan, tak terer pun sebenarnya!)

aku pun tak pasti aku menang ke kalah, yang pasti kami main 2 set ja sebab nak kasik turn ejat ngan in plak main. kalo ikutkan ati nak je sambung jadi 3 set...tp perut growling lapaq, biasala aku makan kena ikut time (awal takpe, lambat jgn hehe)

one thing for sure, aku rasa penat sangat arini. masa main tadi tak rasa sgt, balik bilik ja baru rasa. kaki lenguh semacam. no proper warm-up kot... pastu balik dari bli makanan kena ujan plak sikit. hei! (tak baik mengeluh)

ya allah, janganla bagi aku sakit time2 kritikal ni. aku nak brain aku berfungsi cam biasa tanpa gangguan untuk bekerja ke arah kecemerlangan, huhu!

esok KOT, our first ari sukan kat maktab. after 5 and half years bergelar budak maktab (minus those in upsi), sem ni la jugak kitorag nak dapat rumah sukan. aku tak puas ati satu je, apesal baju rumah tangan pendekkk!!! alang2 bli RM18, nakla pakai keluar main ke makan ke..barula worth, kan kan kan...
anyway, buat pakai kat bilik la lepas ni...rugi rugi!

till the next post ~I~

my first tag

2009-03-01T22:29:00.000-08:00

to matt and nani.

thanx for the tagging but pity nani.
its ur picture yg kena.

nak aku describe ke. jap, nak gelak puas2 dulu.

mangsa2 dalam gambar adalah camel, najat and nani. masa ni kitorang smua macam budak2 and innocent lagi. poyo je nak pi begambar kat studio konon. last2 jadi camni la, haha. banyak lagi pose2 kitorang, tapi takpela buat malu ja...

hahaha...terbayangkan diri aku pakai topi baby kat kepala najat tu. hangpa mesti tak mau tgk sebab memang lawak gila!

mereka yang akan selalu aku kenang

2009-03-01T20:13:00.000-08:00

i have no word in mind now to describe them
they are my 24-other-half
it has been 6 years

Ya Allah, continue and embrace this relationship for me, for us!

when it rains

2009-02-24T22:37:00.002-08:00

this entry will be in malay and english cos sometimes i just don't knoe how to express certain things. but fyi, bilingualism which then turn to code-switching is not very good. this is just an excuse (",)

when i'm writing this, its raining outside.
lebat, tapi tak sangat.
i like the smell of rain, especially when i'm standing on a tarred road. nice and absorbing.

tapi kalo dalam bilik, bunyi dan bau hujan buat aku rasa syahdu.
sangat.
the drops remind me of

home
the past
childhood
people i love

two different opinions i got so far about rain:

this is one.
bila ujan? leceh! kalo jalan kat luar kena senteng sluar / kain.
ujan? smua keja yang dah plan mesti tak jadi. smua orang jadi slow, biasala cuaca lembap.

another one.
i love rainy days.
suka sangat. boleh main ujan.
bila ujan, i feel as if i'm in a different world. serious, trust me...

tapi yang pasti.
bila ujan datang, aku rasa lapar gila.
perut growling2 memanggil makanan. sebab tu aku suka browse blog2 yg banyak photo makanan..

suasana ujan lagi syahdu bila
teringatan zaman kecik2 dolu2.. suka main ujan, main lopak (kat tempat aku panggil lecah).
ingat lagi member2 lelaki yang main ganas, tolak aku jatuh dalam lopak.
pastu balik umah kena marah sebab baju kotor (mak aku tak pakai breeze).

bila dah nak cecah umo 24 ni, rasa malu la pulak kalo nak main ujan lg.
tp budak2 kampong aku pun dah tak pandai main benda2 ni lagi, semua dok dalam umah main game, tgk tv. bosan!

ini yg aku panggil nostalgia.
nostalgia hujan (",)

walopun ia cuma sandwic sardin
apatah lagi kalau nasi lemak ayam percik, sedap walaupun cuma sayur sawi dan mestilah bes kalo dapat cheese cake... nyum nyum!!
inilah nostalgia hujan...

entri khas dari penembak paling kejam kepada mangsa paling kesian

2009-02-21T04:56:00.000-08:00

arini kami pi main paint ball. this is my first time.

entri ini khas aku tujukan buat mangsa2 yang aku rasa paling kesian, dari penembak yang paling kejam.

mula2 skali, ejat!

Ejat!!!
i'm really really really sorry. that was my first 'hands-up' scene to people and aku rasa sebab aku panik kot... my hand was shivering, shaking!
tu yang aku terlepas tembakan yang 'short-range' dan paling kejam aku rasa. sorry. i just can't imagine the situation, it makes me feel terribly guilty.
seriously ejat, masa adik tu tanya ang whether nak tembak balas or not, aku rasa nak tolong jawab 'yes' untuk ang. aku sanggup je kalo ang nak tembak aku bertalu2!
serious aku tak kisah langsung. at least kurang skit rasa guilty aku kat ang. especially when i look at the bruise and bila aku tgk ang bejalan terencot2...

pastu, milah!
milah, aku nak aim tempat lain. tapi tempat tu pulak yang kena. sorry, sorry, sorry. mulanya aku ingatkan tak kena, skali ada bruise jugak.
ish ish...
ang tembak kaki aku sebab kaki aku terkeluar dari shield tu, biasala kaki extra panjang kan. aku pulak pi tembak ang, aku aim tangan sekali kena tempat lain.
sory sesangat ek milah.

dan kepada mangsa2 aku yang lain yang menjadi mangsa penembak paling kejam ni, aku betul2 mintak maaf. tapi aku masih tak puas hati sebab aku tak dapat any 'souvenir' except for wound kat lutut ni yang menyebabkan aku terpaksa sujud dalam keadaan slow mo...

nanti aku tulis lagi entri pasal main paint ball ni ek.
ini cuma ruangan khas, a tribute to all the victims of 'penembak paling kejam'!

kat mamak, sebelum ke medan perang

before action

after action

srikandi2 cohort 2

some people just can't be bothered!

2009-02-20T02:14:00.000-08:00

what would you feel when at some points:

you are struggling to meet the dateline
you are rushing to attend discussions
you are running out of time for something
you are feeling very nervous and worry that something you are
about to do will have any problem
you are trying your best to please each and everyone in almost
every situation
you are not well, but you act like you are

you are feeling 'gila bengang' and they just don't care!

though you know, and other people know that everyone has a lot of works waiting to be done before a new one comes.

this is just another session of me 'membebel'. lucky we're about to finish!
sorry. ampun. maaf. apology.

doa zulaikha kepada nabi yusuff

2009-02-18T19:22:00.000-08:00

Ya allah… ya tuhanku…
Seandainya telah kau tetapkan
Dia milikku dan tercipta buatku..
Dekatkanlah dia kepadaku
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Titipkanlah kemesraan antara kami
Agar kebahagiaan abadi
Seiring kami melayari hidup
Ke tepian sejahtera
Tetapi tuhanku,
Seandainya kau takdirkan
Dia bukan milikku
Bawalah dia jauh dari pandanganku
Luput dalam ingatanku
Ya tuhanku maha pengerti
Berikan aku kekuatan agar ku bahagia
Walau tanpa dirinya
Dan tuhanku yang tercinta
Gantikanlah yang telah hilang
Meskipun tidak sama dengan dirinya
Jika benar cinta itu cinta senjati
Maka bebaskanlah ia
Jika benar cinta itu suci
Ia akan datang sendirinya
Jika ia benar dan tak kunjungi lagi
Maka anggaplah cinta itu memang tidak pernah
Wujud dari awal lagi.

i learn to say thanx!

2009-02-16T19:53:00.000-08:00

going out in the evening to play is one of the things that i will miss the mos when this course end and i will go to the school wherever i'll be posted this coming june. no more playing ping pong at the munsyi hall. thanx maddy for introducing ping pong to me, to us. though sometimes we have to fight over the table with some other guys we don't know, it does leave some effect on me, on us.

and today, the ping pong tables were not there anymore. even the security guards have no idea where are they. where are the tables? macam tau2 je kita tengah gila nak main.

sometimes we went for a walk, or jogging. i never jog because i can't jog. i just walk. a lot of things we do while joging. cuci mata, mengumpat, menyakat. talking while walking is actually a form of exercise. usually it's ejat and me who will be waking together. thanx ejat for the company.

another new 'pot' is in the gymnasium, the gym. usually we play badminton here. we had so much fun. the usual people will come down.

maddy
winnie
nani
christine
kamilah
ejat
kas
kalut
inn
wan
azmi
kas

and me!

thanx christine for the rackets. thanx nani for the shuttlecock.

kalut and i team up today beating nani and milah. we won for two sets, its not always that i have the chance to win. thanx kalut for your patience entertaining me whose not very good in badminton and 'buta' rules some more.

thanx milah for your laughter yang 'bergema' satu gym, though you were just 'berangan' to be a gymnast. thanx nani for the 'poco-poco' dance. both of you light up the day.

thanx inn for the 'hula-hup'. it would be better if you do it alone, so that other people won't laugh. wan did it better, very fast. for sure we can differentiate inn and wan, totally obvious. thanx wan too.

thanx le ann and winnie. winnie, though you are traumatized over the 'shuttlecock incident' you never give it up. le ann is the one like me, new in sport. very amateur. but we do try. right, le ann?

we do have a lot of assignments. we do have a lot of presentations. we do have project paper to be done. storyteling performance is coming up. much more.

all this is an escapism, in a way. have fun + be healthy. killing two birds with a stone.

satu

2009-02-14T08:22:00.000-08:00

sepi
sunyi
aku satu.

kelam
malam
aku satu.

kosong
lengang
aku satu.

bintang
bulan
Dia satu.

hati
mati
Dia. aku. satu.

the night recalls

2009-02-14T04:27:00.002-08:00

le boss = big potion!
this is some kind of a warning to me those who have been there (since i'm not eating much, sometimes!)

this is actually a birthday celebration for wan and inn.
happy birthday wan.
happy birthday inn.
use the present we gave wisely yea! for ur future, hehe...

i ordered pan grill chicken, with 2 sidelines - mash potato + wedges! my potion is not that surprising big, tp boley laa...
well, i finished it. thanx to riss, inn and azmi.

this kind of gathering is not just about eating, but it is more than that. we got to sit together and share whatever we have.

while eating and having fun with them all, it suddenly reminds me of my home.
because i usually spend weekends at home.

what actually my mak, abah and other siblings are doing right now?
what do they have for dinner?

do they remember me as well at this moment, the way i remember them?

again? will this make me better?

2009-02-13T16:26:00.000-08:00

again. for another time, i got to be the 'Props Manager' for i don't know how many times.

and this will be the last. most definitely!
and the first time i will be collaborating with Winnie ^_^

this is all for our storytelling night, which we haven't decided the name.

once upon a time?
a night of magical tales!
voices from the ancient ....? (i don't really get this)

the whole class is like 'getting crazy and more crazier'!

whatever it is, i'm excited to delve into this moment!

the poll said so. so?

2009-02-13T07:59:00.000-08:00

Poll: Sultan’s decision contrary to people’s will

12 Feb 09 : 5.24PM

By Zedeck Siew
zedecksiew@thenutgraph.com

PETALING JAYA, 12 Feb 2009: A new poll has found that the Perak Ruler's decision not to call for snap elections to solve the political imbroglio in the state is unpopular with Perakians.

A total 62% of a 507-voter sample polled by the Merdeka Centre for Opinion Research felt that the role of the palace in this case "does not reflect the will of the people of Perak".

The survey also found that 74% of respondents felt that the state assembly should be dissolved to pave the way for elections, according to a press statement released today by the Merdeka Centre.

The Perak crisis was precipitated when three Pakatan Rakyat state assemblypersons quit their respective parties to become independents, and threw their support behind the Barisan Nasional (BN).

Sultan Azlan Shah refused Perak Menteri Besar Datuk Seri Mohammad Nizar Jamaluddin's request to dissolve the state legislative assembly, and instead agreed to BN forming the government. The move has been seen as an unpopular one, with people voicing out their anger at the Sultan's decision on the internet.

The Merdeka Centre poll found that only 21% thought the royalty was "most rightful in deciding who should form government in Perak". Over three-quarters of all respondents thought that who should form government was the reserve of "the people, through elections".

The poll was carried out via telephone, from 6 to 8 Feb 2009. Respondents — all from Perak — comprised of 47% Malay Malaysians, 41% Chinese Malaysians, and 12% Indian Malaysians, in accordance with the 2008 electoral roll.

Thirty-three percent thought that fresh polls were the best way out of the Perak mess, as opposed to 28% saying that it was prudent to accept the new BN state government.

Most of those polled — 66% — were against state governments formed through defections of state assemblypersons.

Thirty-five percent of those queried supported by-elections in Behrang, Changkat Jering, and Jelapang constituencies, where the Pakatan Rakyat representatives quit their respective parties to become "BN-friendly" independents, leading to the fall of the elected state government.

A majority of Chinese Malaysians and Indian Malaysians polled thought the Perak crisis would increase support for the Pakatan Rakyat, and reduce support for the BN. Opinions among Malay Malaysians however differed, with more thinking that it would decrease support for the opposition coalition, and increase support for the ruling government, than otherwise.

The poll also showed that 47% of all respondents thought the crisis decreased people's faith in Malaysian democracy.

But it is interesting to note, however, that many Malay Malaysian (48%) and Indian Malaysian (53%) respondents thought that events would increase the people's faith in Malaysian democracy. Chinese Malaysians were, however, less optimistic, with only 11% feeling the same way.

what say u people?

i like him, i actually like him

2009-02-12T06:12:00.000-08:00

he dresses in green baju melayu.
firm.
tak goyah.
biar apa orang kata.
yang ini aku gelar pemimpin.
pemimpin pada orang-orang aku yang semakin hari semakin lemah.
semakin parah.
yang pada satu hari mungkin hancur.
hancur di tangan orang-orang mereka sendiri.

he looks good.
smart.
apa pun yang dilalui.
niat dan tujuan cuma satu.
menegakkan apa yang lawan kata salah.
tak perlu drama.
sebab dia tak pandai nak mengarah.
dia cuma betah bertindak.

the smile on his face.
sweet.
senyuman itu ikhlas.
aku dapat rasakan.
bersama tangan-tangan menyokong di belakang.
dia tidak gentar.
sebab dia tahu dia di pihak yang benar.
dan aku yakin aku menyokong orang yang benar.

practicum - project paper -posting!

2009-02-12T05:41:00.001-08:00

this is the current version of my recall - reflect - review. surprisingly, mdm shirley likes it (her comment - I like this 3R, very witty of you (:)

i'm very serious about this. my practicum in lunas was with the other 2 friends, what about posting?

it's okay with me if it happen to be somewhere in semenanjung. what if it happen to be somewhere in Pulau Bumbum or Ulu Baram in Sarawak or Sabah?

Camel said i have to learn to live on my own. it's true. i agree.

but how?
how to face and deal with it in the first place?

whatever, wherever.
i have no choice.
i know.

sigh.

nasihat doktor

2009-02-11T05:46:00.003-08:00

plan asalnya nak ke hospital, skali hospital tutup pukul 5.
tepaksa la p klinik.

apela doktor ni nak cakap ngan aku agaknya.
ting! no 15 bilik A.
aku masuk.
owe, doktor lelaki.
mid 30's.

mazidah ke?
nama dah naik kat skrin, tanya lagi doktor ni.
aku duduk.

aku nak cakap dulu sakit ape ke, nak dia teka?
tak payah.
skali aku 'achooo...!'
dia tau la tu kot.

adik kenapa?
dia doktor bukan bomoh.
slesema.
sejak bila ni?
smalam.
baru lagi.

ada bersin x?
doktor ni mmg nak tau ke nak buat lawak?
itu lah masalah utama saya doktor.

blaja ke keja?
study.
kat mana?
maktab.

jangkit dr kawan ni sbenarnya doktor.
duduk asrama ke?
hostel.
biasa la tu bila dah duduk ramai2 ni.

tarik nafas.
inhale. exhale.
saya slesema ngan batuk doktor.
takpe, saya bg 2 ubat.
1 siang, 1 malam.

yang malam tu jgn silap ambik, nanti x pegi kelas kamu!
saya tau la doktor.
ambik ikut aturan.
nak jd cekgu mesti tau makan ubat kan.
masa ni aku rasa dilayan macam budak umor 7 taun.
okay, nanti ambik ubat kat luar ek.
okay, bubye doktor.
kalau x reda slesema saya, siapla doktor!

aku keluar, tunggu kat dispensary.

mazidah.
apsal suara orang kat dispensary and kaunter kat klinik smua sepesen?
serious.

yang ni makan siang, yang ni makan malam.
dinner ek? hehe.
yang ni ngantuk tau.
okay.

mana ubat batuk aku?
takde ke?
takpe lah.
sampai ati doktor.

keluar.
makan kat jam besar.
20 cucuk satay.
nasi putih + sup daging.
barli suam.

xoxo.

all the small things

2009-02-09T23:15:00.002-08:00

this is a tale of the unseen among the cohort 2's

faiz biting his nails, thinking
kalut laughing out loud almost at every second
riss joker of the redang
in authoring his hair + nyamuking all around
nani cek nama untuk kursus kawen
maddy betulkan tudung
kamilah smsing and laughing
atiqah keep wondering
najat kalut (verb)
ejat checking on attendance and giving announcement
christine reading thick books
kas wacking other people
jey lasering
odah silent and sopan
winnie no other than leann
leann i like her 'aiyaaa'
eva writing messages to be passed
wani looking at zul or sleep (this is my roomate)...
azmi aaa...loking around zul online 24/7
camel melatah and mengacau orang
boy he and his specs
mat elaun bila nak masuk
wan serabut2

wondering what i'm doing?
i am looking around
because i can't see all these anymore in 3 months time...

selasa yang kurang selesa

2009-02-09T22:42:00.001-08:00

The chronological events on this 'selasa':

woke up at 6.30
mandi
ready for class

'achooo....'

mr. nukman's at 8.15
talked to kalut about 'issue kathleen'

'achooo...'

sorok riss's earphone (it's his fault)
wani + zul presenting on RRA
winnie + leann presenting on TT's attitude

'achooo...'

makan, seating beside wan, in front of maddy + nani
went to library
read newspaper

'achooo...'

went back
on laptop
smsing
ribena + vitamin c

'achooo...'

blogging
storytelling strategies
facebooking
encartaing
journal review
googling
emergence + development of Malaysian english
bilingualism

'achooo...'

it's the front door 'flu virus'
it feels so bad

my sister replied
'sakit dan x sihat tu kan kifarah dosa'

okay

'achooo...'

sebab aku abang

2009-02-09T21:25:00.000-08:00

You must have heard this in the add on tv currently. I have 4 brothers, 3 elders and one younger.

This is a story of me and my 'incredible' big brother. He's the only one who is still single among my elder brother. He's 28 (or younger, i cant really remember..but i never forget his birthday). Why him?

He's concern about where i go, with whom, by what...
We can share the same 'bantal' watching tv...
He never wake me up whenever I fell asleep in the co-driver seat...
He feels nothing introducing me to his friends i never know...
He's always willing to share his drink though he knows he needs it more than i do...
He cares to top-up my phone anytime i desperately need it...
He holds my hand when we cross the road...
He doesn't mind been called 'driver' to anyone who needs a lift...

I can still remember when I was in Lunas doing my practicum - he's the one who sent me back to quarters during the fasting month..
at night or early in the morning, right after subuh..
The text he replied stuck tight in my mind - 'takpa la, kesian kat ang. ang bukak la posa dulu. satgi aku antaq.' After bukak posa - 'esok pagi la. kesian ang nak bangun sahur sorang2.'

He cares about me had to go back late to maktab for certain reasons, and he is the one who was willing to sent me back.
His replied text - 'alah, stakat s.p tu 4 x sehari pun aku sanggup.'

I once had the courage to ask him WHY, for all the things he does while my other brothers don't bother?

'sebab aku abang'

kenapa dia?

2009-02-08T23:59:00.000-08:00

On the first day of February, I got another nephew. New nephew! Mujahid bin Mohd. Luthfi. A little brother of Nur Shathirah, Mohd. Kamil, Mohd. Ikmal and Nur Najihah.

Makcik betul2 mintak maaf!
Mujahid is the eleventh in the list of my nieces and nephews. Undeniably, the feeling is different now. It's not that I did not feel the joy, but 'keadaan semasa' is like forcing me not to really enjoy it much. The feeling is not anymore the same like how i was told that I got my first niece, Munirah a.k.a Kak Yong.

If one day Mujahid was to read this entry, I just want him to know that makcik sayang, sayang dan sayang kamu semua.

Whatever it is, I am still grateful to be granted with akak2 dan abang2 (and my adik one day) who gave and will give me more 'people to love and be loved'.

(Mohd. Luthfi Mokhtar + Fazilawati Fadzil)
Nur Shathirah Mohd. Luthfi
Muhamad Kamil Mohd. Luthfi
Muhamad Ikmal Mohd. Luthfi
Nur Najihah Mohd. Luthfi
Mujahid Mohd. Luthfi

(Mazni Mokhtar + Muhamad Muslim Ghazali)
Munirah Muhamad Muslim
Maizatul Shahida Muhamad Muslim
Muhaimi Muhamad Muslim

(Bukhori Mokhtar + Nor Safariza Arof)
Nur Syifa Bukhori
Muhamad Zaim Bukhori

(Halimaton Mokhtar + Saiful Bukhori Rozi)
Ikhwan Bukhori Saiful Bukhori

ayat - ayat cinta

2009-02-08T23:23:00.000-08:00

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